As I write this post, I'm cuddling with my boys in my bed watching Despicable Me. I know, despicable right? Well, not really it is actually a really cute movie. Colby is on the verge of a nap and so not really watching... As we snuggle and laugh at the funny parts of the movie, I find myself telling myself, remember this moment, this feeling, I am so blessed, so lucky! I have been telling myself that a lot lately whether I am playing with the kids, talking with Chase about something he's inquired about (he asks so many questions!), or just watching the kids work in the yard with Scott as his little helpers. I'm so glad they both like to work with Daddy. Chase especially because he's at the age where he is big enough to help and learn at the same time. I feel so lucky that I have had these moments, so many moments to remember that I will treasure forever. I sometimes think that when it is my time to leave this earth that no matter what the circumstance that I will remember all the times I told myself to remember.... that I had so many wonderful memories of my life as a mom, a wife, with all my boys (including Scotty :) and just the memory of me wanting to remember all the moments will provide a sense of peace that nothing else possibly could.
Mother's Day is tomorrow and even though it is a day to celebrate moms which means me, I realize that it really isn't about me. Although technically the day is about moms, I am a mom, I love my kids more than my own life and try everyday to be the best mom I can be, some days I rock and other days not so much but I try so hard because I love them.... It seems that Mother's Day for me is really about my boys. It is because of them that I am a mom, that I have this opportunity, this very important role in life. That I have had this chance to learn so much about myself and to grow into the person I am, their mom.
Thank you so much, Chase and Colby. You are the best boys a mom could hope for. I am so grateful to be your mom, to have this amazing role in life to take care of you, teach you, and love you. You both are so full of energy and wonder and without you both my life would be so empty and meaningless. You have given me so much, taught me so much and challenge me so much. You both are so alike and different at the same time. It is a joy to watch you grow and change and become the best of friends. You make me laugh so hard and cry sometimes, too! You both are so special and I am truly the lucky one because of you...
Happy Mother's Day to all the moms out there. We are all truly blessed to be moms. To have this very important role in life, the opportunity to love our children, take care of them and watch them grow. We are all so damned lucky, aren't we?